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So I gave my dog a treat about 5 min ago and this is what he has done since he got it.
It’s still laying there. He got over it and went on his bed. He occasionally goes by it, pounces on it. Has a stare down and then walks away.

Dreams suck

Thanks to them I’m going to be thinking about this situation all day. I hate it! Not only am I not safe from these feelings when I’m awake but now they’re creeping in to my dreams.

I’m not safe anymore :c

Disneyland with Tanner today. I was so excited to come and just a couple of min ago when we were standing in line for Indiana it hit me. How Fucking miserable I’m going to be when he leaves.how my heart is just going to completely explode.if not being with him and still hang out with him absolutely kills me then when he’s gone and I won’t be able to see him or hang out with him is just going to be hell.

I hate when I do this to myself. I start thinking of the worst scenerios ever and I make myself upset. And in this situation I am ruining Disneyland for both of us.

Shitty a’f day

I am so unhappy I can not even begin to explain. I’m fucking miserable. It hurts to smile. It hurts to interact with people. I do it anyways because I know that if I lock myself away again I will get worse. It just sucks to know that I now can’t trust anyone with everything. In my life, there is no such thing as a best friend. Someone who knows everything.someone who understands. I thought I ad one…but I was wrong and it’s so heart breaking to know that this world is full of selfish people who are only looking out for their best interest.

#Life  #Fuck it  #Personal  

Overal today was shitty.

I am so unhappy I can not even begin to explain. I’m fucking miserable. It hurts to smile. It hurts to interact with people. I do it anyways because I know that if I lock myself away again I will get worse. It just sucks to know that I now can’t trust anyone with everything. In my life, there is no such thing as a best friend. Someone who knows everything.someone who understands. I thought I ad one…but I was wrong and it’s so heart breaking to know that this world is full of selfish people who are only looking out for their best interest.

#Fuck people  #Life  #Personal  #spiffrrdude  #spiff reduce